March 24th.2009Tuesday
“Complications may arise if we wait for long.i think we should make up our minds for the surgery now. May be we can wait for couple of days more. Then will we induce the contractions externally”. The doctor says.
“Oh! Okay. But can we make it on the weekend. My husband will have an off and will be able to take the flight on Friday night.” I question holding my hands which are sweating already, hearing the word EXTERNALLY.
“Yes we can do that, but you need to get admitted by Friday evening and Sundays we entertain only emergency cases. Is that okay with you chetna”? She asks, unaware of my apprehensions.
“I think that is pretty okay with me.” I smile, receiving a smile which is more professional than a personal one.
Another day is ahead of me, when I come out of the cabin. I have another 72 hrs before I can lay myself in the hands of fate. How difficult yet so soothing, how uncertain yet so composed is every moment for me.
I take my usual calcium and iron dose and try to ignore the fatigue which comes up just by sitting and getting up on several occasions today. I don’t want to have anything except for the oranges that has filled my refrigerator as if they are evolving speedily, lying there.
And I do not know what to do with these abrupt movements that at times shake me up from head to toe. I have been listening to all kinds of opinions that comes naturally to me, whenever any women whom I know looks at me. At times those who hardly know me take pride in passing me the information which I have already trashed.
A major snag of this whole phase is that everyone wants to invite me to have lunch or dinner with. I perhaps should not say that, but isn’t it a bit rude to do that??? I mean to feed somebody, at least a foodie like me, with the best palatable stuff, when actually I cannot have it.....!!! I think that is mean.Better I do not write about it, already I feel like throwing up right now. A sound slumber should help me I guess.
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